July 28, 2007 |
i feel sick and i want to vomit.

wednesday night i was lying in bed and i started crying. ben, i thought about having to tell you that my chest wasn't fixed. i thought about having to look you in the eyes and say that i failed, and that i didn't make it, and that it didn't turn out well, and that it was all a waste, and that you couldn't have barry back. i won't be able to say it. please don't make me say it.

© barry reinschreiber